Got my infection looked at. Heads throbbing and Im sick as a dog. Hope we can be ok today. Im seeing my old kelly again. Im such a shitty person and I know it but i just need her to be with me and not against me at this point. I love her but im being honest.
Yes im hiding cleaning up the rest of my mess but only becasue I know when shes mad she dosent think and that is my fault. Ive had my carreer threatned and what she dosent get is it dosent mean shit to me. I hope she will take the time one day to read this but today i applied for 2 jobs just hoping to get one so I can give all this shit up. I want her to know I care.
Jobs:
https://www.google.com/search?q=,marketing+jobs&oq=,marketing+jobs&aqs=chrome..69i57j0l7.3199j0j7&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8&ibp=htl;jobs&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwj1vpjlyM_oAhUCnq0KHQJQBQMQp4wCMAB6BAgLEAE#htidocid=VEd63S1C34TsQMpUAAAAAA%3D%3D&sxsrf=ALeKk01rnhwYnN-1s9Tu5QkUtGS-WRovig:1586030702902
Im willing to give it all up job and everything for my family but i need another day of her at nikkis. I got so much shit out. I know im not perfect but we both as well as our friends for a year now have done this and im the idiot who has a fear of people digging through our trash because of our community standings so I hoard empty shit. I also need to get behind her dresser where I hid some empty shit. I just want to fix this and I cant go an hour with out being accused of something.
the fucked up part im really being honest and she dosent care and I dont blaime her. ive begged for a drug test becasue im actually being honest for once and she wont hear me.
