They tell you its not easy making it though a need for substances in your life. What they dont tell you is that those you care about most will fail 100% of the time. The hardest thing in the world is going for 38 hrs through excruciating pain and continually getting accused of using drugs. I find it almost comical now. Im planning and preparing to cook dinner and ill put 50 dollars on the fact that while I clean and cook tossing any trace of a negative me I can find my wife will start a fight.
Im wrong and I know this but I also know at this point nothing I can do will be right. Ive walked a thin line, gone the 2 days and shes on me when i shit, drive and even breath. I just know mid cleaning the shit thats still laying around shes going to snap and its ok im prepared now. When people care to much they can destroy what they are trying to fix.
